The Girl In The Corner
This is what goes through my head when I’m onstage. My brain is thinking in beats and musical measures, and I’m hoping that I’m counting correctly. To the audience that comes to see The Abode, I’m just tucked away in the corner staring into a computer screen. Some people in the audience might notice me or not at all. To be honest I hope the audience never notices me. Being onstage has been one of the most abnormal experiences I have ever done in my theater career. It is something that I will probably never get used to, but I am so thankful to be doing something that is pushing my boundaries.
As soon as the show starts my brain is counting and thinking of the next cue to do. Okay so after this measure ends I need to press the next cue in order for it to start on the measure. This is just one of the many things that I am saying to myself during the show. Sometimes I’ll have two pages before my next cue and my mind can be at ease for about twenty seconds, then my mind is back to counting to four. I have never been a part of a show that has been so mentally and emotionally challenging. For four weeks me and our musical director Joel Rieke would spend hours in a room listening to new rhythms and beats that we could incorporate into the show. What I created on a computer is now being heard by a new group of people every day.
So we are now coming up on our last few performances. Even though it will be a bittersweet end I will continue to enjoy to sit in my corner and watch for the next cue.